once upon a time

here it goes.......

i fall for him .. without hesitate i fall......
from the way he talk, the way he walk.. the way he move and the way he think. he is such a brilliant man .. i have never met anyone like him, one in a million.. truly admire him..
i fall deeply in love with him ..

we talk, we smile, we laugh, we share, and at the end...
we love each other so much ..

then ,

thing goes wrong.. he become mean, become heartless
become the man you never want to see in him..
and you, you become un-rationale..
you yelled, you scream, you fight, you cursed a lot..
and he stood there, doing nothing..
look at you like u r some lunatic..
he point all the mistakes to you, without even think about you..
why did u gone mad, why did u feel so upset..
he dont care..
what he cares is, all about himself..
you want to understand the situation..
but he ignore u from point no.1 ...
so how are you supposed to open up ..
how r u supposed to accept...
how r u supposed to ?

then u sit down , u cried..
but hes not there... hes with someone else, in a hotel room ..
they look so happy together, she is the reason why he wanted to hang up the phone..
she is the main reason why he ignored you..
because of her...
she was his first love... then it will always be..
no matter how good you treat him, how much you give...
he aint gonna appreciate it the way he grateful for her..
you are just a story in his life..
without you, he aint gonna loose anything..
he said ' i love you very much ' ...
then you said, if you love me that much .. why you hang up the phone..
he yell thru the phone saying,
i said i have to, i dont wanna fight and bla bla bla...
so dear fella,
if youve been waiting the whole day to talk to him,
you've been sending all the nice words and sms...
saying you miss him..
why does he act like a bad boy ?
why does he lie to you saying he dont have the time to sms you, to tell you that hes on the way back, while he can tell her that " sayang, i on the way balik dah "
doesnt this make u upset?

you give him everything that every boy dream of from you ...
but he dont care, he don bother.. he dont want to hurt her, so he hurt you ..
knowing that you'll be there... you still gonna be there..
loving him..
much more each and every day ..

you wonder why you cant hate him,
cause how can you hate the person you love so much... it is actually toooo much ...

in the still of the night..
so you pray,
you pray everything's gonna be alryte..
you pray there's no
suicide notes
tomorrow..