8 years

Ive been asking the question over n over again.. Ur answer will be the same .

You said ' im not ready . Its not about the money, im just not ready '

It hurts me mr. It did .. its been 8years, how can u still not ready? Im not ready either.. But i want to face it together.. But you dont want it yet.. With me..

As a girl, i proposed to you ... Its sad, it is sooo sad... And everytime u said u r not ready it was like a rejection to me...
Babe, you will never understand what i feels..

And now, june 7 , i decided to stop thinking of you not being ready... I wanted peace.. I want to back off from our relationship... And suddenly you change your mind...

Me : y all of sudden you said you can? While selama ni you x ready, after i decide nak back off .. Terus u boleh pulak.

You: because i have no options. Because you nak sangat

Me: u want to marry me cause of you dont have options? babe.. You hurt me. Y r u doing this to me?

All of sudden you ve change your mind...
And when i said i cant let it happened cause of you have no options.. You accused me of finding a reason to leave you...
You break my heart.. Seriously bREAKINg it.. And you dont realize that..
You put the blame on me..

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